What does a girl do with FIVE DAYS in a chair with her knee above her heart? Realize it's been 2 years too long since I've updated our blog!!
Turns out, quite a LOT has happened since I last wrote, July 2011. You'da had to have paid me to believe that my next two years of life would have played out the way they have... :)
So, if you've got the time and are interested, sit back with a yummy beverage of choice and enjoy, as we relive the whirlwind that has been our last two years of life.
As much as I'd have liked these to be in order from oldest to newest, it just didn't happen this time, so jump around with me:)
Here I am corn-mazing it with C and the twins. Hands FULL with 3 under three, I remember having such a happy heart this beautiful Sept 2011 fall day... feeling blessed!
Missy Fall 2011
E-Man fall 2011
Miss Halloween 2011
Happy First Bday Ethan and Moriah!! Fall 2011
Moriah and me at Caleb's 3-year-old bday pty fall 2011
Christmas 2011... singing happy birthday to Jesus :)
Me and my sweet buddies Christmas 2011
Family sledding Winter 2011
Christmas Eve 2011
Moriah and Dad Butterfly Kisses Dance February 2012
February 2012... Ethan, Caleb and Moriah
Trip to Grand Canyon with my ma... November 2012
Caleb Christmas 2011
Ok, so, ...
Here's how this went ...
"Dus, I don't feel well..."
"You think you're getting sick?"
Next day... I realize I know this feeling... and I think i'm pregnant. I don't say anything to D. I don't take a test. Fear...
One of my most vivid God-conversations ever followed that evening. It went something like this (remember this was before I took a test):
"Heather, I know what I'm doing... My joy will be your strength." Clear as day... words spoken straight to my heart. My spirit filled in the rest. Oh. My. Goodness, I thought... I'm seriously, pregnant.
Oh. My. Goodness.
Oh. My. Goodness.
My heart sank.
I. Can't. Do. This. Again... I can't...
That's how that went...
I came home and took a test (still said nothing to Dustin). Negative.
PHEW!!! I'm so silly in my heart, I thought... geez, Heather!!
Went to sleep... feeling safe... but still nauseous. Expecting to wake in a few hours puking, my alarm went off at 6, and I KNEW. I rolled over in bed and said, "Dustin. I'm pregnent."
"WHHHHAT?!? Go in and take a test!"
... the sign that changed everything.
... the sign that changed everything.
My first reaction was remembering how my Jesus spoke to my heart the night before to prepare me... like i've done so many times before, knowing what the next 9 months would entail AGAIN (9 months of SICK), but this time with 3 kids under 3, not just 1, my heart, as it dropped through the floor in disappointment and fear, gripped my Saviors hand... tight...
My husbands first reaction... not appropriate for a family blog... :)
(Sorry La, but this is really how it all payed out)
I got ready for work... feeling sick (physically) and in shock. I'm not sure if I made any sense teaching fractions that day... my mind raced... Oh. My. Goodness. MORE KIDS, JESUS? Remember, we don't get pregnant on our own? ...like at. all. I'm still nursing the twins... and haven't had a period yet... Pregnant? HOW?
Time passed. We told family. I spent days throwing up... teaching, then laying on the couch sick, EXHAUSTED, sick, throwing up more while I watched my kids adjust to life with mom on the couch. Laundry and dishes piled up. My life was falling apart and I couldn't get up off the couch to stop it... my heart sunk even deeper.
"Jesus, you messed up this time. BIG TIME. You got the wrong girl. I can't do this!!! Everything that's good in our life is falling apart... I can't hold it together. You blessed us with 3 beautiful children after years of none, and now I can't even care for them, or hardly love or teach them... from the couch, head in the garbage can."
Sicker than I could remember being with even the twins, I visited our OB at 7 weeks who, gently said,
"Heather, I think we need to order up an ultrasound for you. Your uterus is large. I think you may be having twins again."
I cried. Life was over.
I had to wait 7 days for the ultrasound.
Sick, waiting... I remembered what Jesus said a month earlier, before this storm even hit. Establishing His mark on this story... "Heather, I know what I'm doing. My JOY will be your strength." I spent time that evening in Jeremiah 29 and Nehemiah 8...
I decided then and there that I was going to BELIEVE GOD, again, though my life felt like it was falling apart, I talked to my heart again and again.
"He knows what he's doing."
"His JOY will be more than enough strength to get you through..."
Here's the pic taken a week later of just ONE baby! :)
Week's passed... many of these pics to come (from Dec 2011 - Aug 2012), elicit nausea even now just looking at them. It was a HARD 9 months... to say the least.
E being E... taking diggers
C and his best buddy :)
Twins snuggling Dadda :)
LOL... C brought his bath ducky into bed with him one night :)
July 2011 - Moriah
More diggers: )
Missy Aug 2011
Summer 2011 Ethan
Summer 2011 Moriah
Sept 2011 Moriah
Summer 2011 Ethan
June 2012 MN visit
Nov 2011... Ironman AZ
Nov 2011 The twins at Momma's bball game :)
December 2011... Baby #4 on the way
Summer 2012 Missy :)
February 2012 Moriah ready for Butterfly Kisses. Momma 3 mo pregnant with Selah
Christmas 2011 :)
C December 2011
E Jan 2011
Moriah :) Summer 2012
Valentines day 2012
Baby #4 growin...
One of my most favorite pictures EVER. Sweet Caleb really struggled during my pregnancy with Selah... he took to this pink doll, and named it Selah... they were inseparable... think it somehow helped him manage.
The last few years have been musical chairs sleeping-arangement-wise with the kiddos. From Ethan and moriah sharing a room, to moving ethan to selahs new room before she was born, to moving caleb to his own room, to moving ethan and moriah back together, to then moving ethan in with caleb, to moving caleb to the basement. Why? you may ask... Looking back over each move, each move has had a distinct purpose... and honestly each purpose has been some form of - to get E as far away from other kids as possible. E.
May 2012... E took a digger... trip #1 to ER
July 2012... E and his crib antics... even to this day, most nights when we come in to check on him before we go to sleep, he's unzipped, or naked, or undiapered... crazy man :)
Our blessings :) July 2012
Found out baby #4 was a girl March 31, 2012
We drove... me 8 mo pregnant, 3 kids 3 and under, through the night to MN last summer. We made it alive... barely.
Once there, it was a great trip!
Kids at Nana's pool
Summer fun at Benson's house 2012
May 2012 Caleb's Preschool graduation
Caleb and Dad playing Fireman Sam :)
I enjoyed one of my most precious years of teaching yet last year teaching 6th grade math at Preston Middle School. Here are some of my kiddos in May 2012. Teaching during the day was the best possible therapy for pregnancy sickness... got my mind off of how miserable I felt... kids brought me Fireballs (candy) every day... seriously helped :)
Missy Summer 2012
Miss checking for Ethan's poos... summer 2012
Caleb and his best buddy Owen at a Home Depot kids build morning. August 2012
MN cousins :) June 2012
Kids and Nana :)
August 10th finally arrived... my last ever day of pregnancy sickness.
The day we would meet one of the greatest blessings of our life,
See Facebook album for more Selah pictures:)
D lovin on his kids :)
Every bit of 9 months pregnant
Handy Manny E Aug. 2012
Seriously... his hand provided. Selah is a Hebrew word meaning to pause and reflect.
Even now, I pause, my heart fills with Joy, and I praise our good God for the gift of our sweet #4, Selah Joy. I CANNOT imagine life without her.
"Heather, I know the plans I have for you. My joy will be your strength"... you spoke that cold winter evening...
Yes Lord. You do. Always :). You have carried us. You have strengthened my weak body. You have filled my heart with more Joy than I could have ever dreamed or imagined.
I'm reminded of one of my favorite worship songs... What can I say? What can I do? but offer this heart O Lord completely to you.
As many of us have, when you LIVE through God's hand doing in your life what you KNOW you could not have done on your own... the only response that can even come close to expressing to God in worship the gratitude and awe felt, is surrender... everything:). ... the most beautiful place on earth :)
Selah Joy :)
E and Miss December 2012
Welcome home from the hospital, Selah :)
Missy Warrior Princess Summer 2012
First familly of 6 hike to RMNP :) Sept 2012
E lovin on La :)
Our first family of 6 run. Sept 2012
La 3 weeks
C's first day of Preschool August 2012
Nana with La
C's first day :)
La's first Horsetooth hike with me and C :)
August 2012... La on a hayride with the other 3 at The Farm ;)
E October 2012
La's Dedication in Estes Park
My potty trained 2 year old. Missy March 2012
Ethan and Moriah's 2nd Birthday :) October 28, 2012
September 2012 RMNP hike
La January 2013
Selah, Caleb, Ethan and Moriah with my Pumas
February 2nd, 2013... broke my hand playing AM pickup... 6 weeks in a cast made for some interesting diaper changing, butt wiping, dishes-doing moments :)
November 2012: C's 3rd birthday
November 2012 Turkey Trot
December 2012... La's first swim
La's first Christmas :)
Loved making cookies with the kids last winter :)
Singing happy birthday to Jesus
Trip to Disney
Ethan an Moriah's first day of preschool
Winter in-door fun :)
Have loved doing "school" with Caleb this year :)
In-door trampoline fun with the kids :)
Ethan and Moriah heading in to school :)
Ice skating with the youngins for the first time :)
Fun snowshoe with good friends. Jan 2013
Selah sitting up by herself for the first time :) Jan 2013
La, I see so much joy in those eyes of yours :)
Butterfly kisses February 2013
Our karate kid :)
Sleddin' fun March 2013
Amazing trip to Mexico with D. March 2013
La hangin' at Caleb's soccer practice
Ethan and Moriah heading into school
Miss on the phone :)
Twins' first dentist visit. Love you Dr. Sharla :) March 2013
Caleb and Sierra March 2013
Mis and her Zips (lipstick)
La's last sink bath. Mar 2013
La sportin' my baby kicks :)
April 2013 Spring U5 Soccer :)
Here we are March 2013 dying Easter Eggs with the Benson Family :)
Moriah dying eggs with Dad, March 2013
Summer 2013 :)
Hikin' March 2013
Welcome ALICE MARIE!! April 2013
Beauty shop with Nana ;0)
Early spring sleddin' with our dare devil, C :)
Love you more and more every day D! :)
Count 'em... 7! ;)
Lovin on baby Alice :)
Miss and her best buddy Woody :) Spring 2013
Mr. Ironman training in the snow :)
May SNOW!! :) 2013
Out for a gorgeous am run with La
Caleb getting his yellow belt :) May 2013
Happy Birthday Dadda!! May 2013
Colorado Marathon 2013 :)
Maybe my most favorite pic :)
Amanda and I have done life together all year. Such a friend she is to put up with the chaos that comes with hanging out with 4 under 4. In this pic, we're waiting out a hail storm in the van... :) LOVE you Miss Amanda!!
Twins going for a cruse on their Striders May 2013
Rub a dub dub, FOUR Campings in the tub!
SPRING! :) 2013
The kids pick me all kinds of flowers as we're out and about. LOVE it! :)
SO much fun being back on the bike this summer!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE!! :) 2013
Post soccer DQ :)
Missy in her BIG girl bed! :) April 2013
Dadda dressing Miss for dance :)
Moriah's first dance recital May 2013
School with C :)
Out for a ride with my buddies :)
More adventures :)
SUCH a great soccer season! :)
1, 2, 3, 4 :)
Miss feeding baby Madison :)
Moriah's first hair cut :) June 2013
Helpin' Dad paint ;)
Scrabble fun with C :)
Miss and dance :)
Swim lessons June 2013
Piano lessons with Dad June 2013
Lowe's with my boys :)
E sleeping naked again :)
Hiking with my buddies :)
Date with my Love
More Hikin' June 2013
Rist Canyon with D... LOVE saddle time with my Love! :)
More hikin June 2013
Golfin with Dad June 2013
Home from Meniscus knee surgery. June 2013
Summer fun with cousins June 2013So, who'da guessd? It's possible that the LOOOONG 4 days of ice and elevation this knee required for healing ended up being a pretty special time reliving the beauty of the last 2 years. Here's to monthly bloggin from here on out!!
IF, you made it this far in this LOOOOOOONG entry, you must be my mom or dad. LOVE YOU MOM AND DAD! Thanks for readin' it all :)